At the risk of being totally skewered here....I have to come clean. I've been a season ticket holder for 6 years. This year is the first time that I have ever not lost my voice from standing and yelling on third/fourth down.
I don't know why I'm not doing it this year....I've just stopped. I used to scream till I was hoarse.
In the past I used to stomp on bleachers to make as much noise as possible,
During the Edsall years it seemed like every big third down I screamed.....it was an automatic huge play for the opposing offense.
During the first two PP years.....I am even more demoralized. I just know that our lead is never safe, that we will give up the big play, that the ball won't bounce our way when it counts....I just have no confidence that we can win.
I know I'm wrong when I think it....but sometimes I feel like I care about winning more than our coaches do....because some of the things they do just don't make any sense to me at all. And yet....Just like the HCRE years...I'm told 1) The coaches know the personnel 2) The coaches see the players in practice so they know better 3) We don't have the players other schools get 4) We play to not make mistakes so we don't beat ourselves 5) Players just didn't execute.
I don't know if any of this is true.
What I do know....I make less noise than I used to....I believe less that we will win games (even against what I deem to be inferior foes).....I believe that if there is a way to lose a game, we'll find a way to lose.
Feeling this way sucks.....It's an awful feeling. I want to have a passion for this team. I want to be up by 14 in the first quarter and know that we are going to completely dismantle an opponent and look forward to discussing the merits of our team at the post game tailgate.....
It could be just me.....maybe I expect too much. Judging from the messages and noticeable apathy on this site though....maybe it isn't just me.
I still want the team to win, I still go to all the games I can.... even after moving over 1000 miles away (flew in for the game this weekend). I always stay for the entire game....and when I can't make it I give my tickets to my friends who all root for UConn.
.....but if this team is slowly losing me....someone I consider a die hard fan.....maybe the administration needs to do something....anything to invigorate the program.